Trust?!...

Have the feeling that trust btwn ppl is really important, but i think if u dun give that person a chance how u can know whether u can trust them,let them show wat are they capable of bfr u decide whether to trust them or not...

Have been doing nth for this past few days, just slacking and slacking...was thinking of whether i want to go back and work for 2 days bfr gg off for my NEW YORK trip, cause summath and hariharan saw me at colvin the other day, i lied abt gg out of town for the week and told her i wont be gg to work, but they saw me, but still i forgot to make a call to her, and since tml only 1 day,so decided not to work... i need to work hard next semester.. :((((((((( i'm officially "BROKE" <--Real broke...
gg for a run tml, hope so..hahaha... tintin cming back, so wont be bored bah..:DD but gg off soon,hope she's fine here...
gg to pick her up ltr on...
That's all FOLKS!!
~ciao~

water Rafting!!

Went water rafting last saturday, it was so fun!! can get a tan too,but still not that tan, bcm darker though,haha..we rafted for like hours.. reach there from stillwater at arnd 9:30 i think, we go at 5 a.m from here,or maybe ltr,waited for people and getting ready..Slept at 3 am that day and woke up at 4:45 am and rush to oma's hs to gather and not all people arrive yet though.
After reaching there,put on some sun block and took a bus to the other end and we started rafting till 4 pm..stop few times to rest though. we had water fight,swimming and catching fish for awhile only,but overall it was fun. :DD hope to do it again next summer,maybe try kayaking next time.. got few blisters from rafting,whenever i take a shower it is so painful!! :(( hope it gets well soon.
Went dallas yst,it was so tiring, was not feeling good but it was fine after some chocolate...we plan to go at 8 am but didnt get up,so went arnd 10 pm,hahha..start our 4 hrs journey to dallas,bro drive so i just enjoy the scenery,hahha,ana was sleeping behind...half way through the journey 'm getting sleepy,luckily ana woke up,so it's my turn,hahhaa...reach there arnd 2:30 and we eat at TOKYO ONE, shushi buffet...i didnt really feel wwwaaa when eating it this time,though i really want to eat shushi, i want to eat SAKAE SHUSHI!!! :(( but had fun time eating with bros..and smth funny happen,hahaha...cant tell u guys...
Then we headed to asian mart-"Qiao Guan" to buy some stuff we cant find in oklahoma,bought till 250+,hahaha...really lots,but it's quite expensive for some stuff... then we started our 4 hrs ride agn back to stillwater, we are out of coins to pass the turnpike,so we went wal-mart to get some change,then started our way back...went around looking for cheap gas station,hahaha..gas is so expensive nowadays!!! after finding one for like 3.69/gallon, we stop and fill the tank up and then continue on our way..bro drove half-way and we change,i drove the other half-way back,drove for like arnd 1 hr 45 mins bfr reaching home,my eyes was so tired especially when it's night time,so tired..
That's all for this weekend...
Will be heading for new york next monday till 16th if august!!2 days bfr sch start!!haha,we really played hard this time, and really broke!! i really need to get a job for this tripssss!! wish me luck!!
~adios~

Dark Knight...

Dark Knight was a good movie, maybe i'm expecting too much and quite sian,so dun really have the "wwwaaa" feeling, was funny some part and scary!! I didnt think the scar face is scary, i think the joker is even more scarier than that!! gg to have nightmare?!? maybe?!? will sleep no matter wat, so tired today!!
Hw due tml, agn!! last time i have to deal with this mapleta thingy!! 2 questions this time but it's 15 marks each!!! like wat!!! hope i can do it alone, by myself.

Today's garage sales was good, had a lot of fun, it was a long day but it was really fun. :DD they gave out free toys, but didnt get anything,saw a 小丸子 musical box, but it was taken by smn when i was gone.. :(( saw quite few stuffs but still nth... bought photo frame and an angel thingy, was quite satisfying though.. :))

I really quiting this thurs i think after my finals, wont be working anymore, just sux...

Everythings been fine lately,back to the way it used to be, at least that's wat ppl say... am i a kind of person who wat let u all look down and all that, kind of person who gets angry easily, i just dun like the way things work for me, u might think it works for u but to me maybe not... it's gd things are back, but why in this same way/situation which i really dun like once/twice is ok,but everytime, C'MN!!!

gg to sleeeeppppp ppl...nite
chalja chalja

Garage sale!!

We are having another garage sale tml, and it's held in a church near campus...The church is SO SO SO Big!! they have kitchen with all the things u need: oven, microwave, etc... big kitchen, part of it is almost like taco mayo.. (=.=)'' hope it's gg great!!

First of all: congrats tintin!!! :DD miracle do happens,haha... hope it's cming to me soon!! ~waiting~
didnt go work after that continue sleeping!! was so tired!! i decided to quit!! i really dun feel like working there anymore, the minute i thought that i'm gg to work ltr dampened my mood, and tintin told me smth abt this today and she say it's time to leave.. i agree!! so both of us are in need for job right now, she's leaving pistol pizza and me TACO MAYO!! things was great at first but, something change and i thought it didnt affect me as much but it did in the end and i can say i'm partly blame for it but i dunno, i'm really sorry though making up excuses just to get away from working...Plan to quit next week but for fall semester, gg to tell her ltr on,not now...
I QUIT!!
smth happen that shows me lying it's really hard, sometimes lying just get back at u with the way u never thought it could happen, just felt so annoying and really sux!! so DUN LIE!! and please i dun feel that helping u guys is bad but i prefer communication more that lying, it's going to help more in communicating than having to lie, [If you lie, you have to think about more lies to cover the lies you created, so what's the point of getting more trouble for yourself]
Went to play badminton just now, but didnt get a chance to play with mbak yuyun, so hope to have another chance, she really play really gd...Played something like squash just now with elisa,daphne and jonathan, and i really sux at it, OOOHHH!! can't believe it, so stupid!! But it was fun,learning another sports, but still want to play ice hockey!! it's like a dream for me, i like floor ball and i think ice hockey are cool!! saw the tournament on tv few years back and was really interested in it!! and after watching a drama abt ice hockey it's really more interesting, hope to have a chance! :DD i found the drama so starting to watch it!haha..

now i'm waiting and also waiting for my hair to dry, i wash my hair just now, hvnt bathe! :( just come back from ihop, eat late late dinner and for some of them late lunch cum dinner and supper maybe,hahha. went tp help arrange the stuff for tml, had lots of fun today, really fun...
btw there's a cockroach in my hs!! AAAHHH!! if u guys dunno, i'm really scared of cockroach, they are disgusting and scary, if there are those that can fly, it's not scary is horrifying!!! ughh, but there's smth to thank this cockroach but i cant write it here,hahaha!!! :P

Ok that's for today...thinking abt smth also cant tell u guys,haha... XD
watching drama and after my hair are dry i'll sleep,tml at 7 a.m!! NNNOOO!! i'm gg at 7:30 though,hahaha... XD

~ciao~

Dream..

"有梦就难免寂寞..." 真的吗？We will feel lonely if we have dream?! so wat does that mean? we shouldnt have dream?! Always think that having hard times in our lifes is really quite important, because if we get through this it means that we have grown up.. But today's situation is too hard to handle when i think the problem does not lies only within me, but also others, i can change but if the others dont change then u cant expect me to just live my life according to how they feel and how they think things should be, I'm not that kind of person...
I think all i can do is wait wait Wait, 等等等。。。

Let's talk abt the concert last friday, it went well, though not much turn up, but heard we earn quite a sum of money from the silent auction...BUT...it was so dissapointing!!when we performed nobody clap!!! was feeling like "AAAWWW.." inside, so sad, i think we performed really well, we sang through out the whole performance when we thought we couldnt cause we'll be out of breath by half-way,but after few training we manage to sing through out the whole performance, though there's some mistakes but we did a good job overall i think!! :DD was planning to go eat 'Qdoba', but after we finish helping it's already 11+,and 'Qdoba' close at 10, so went back home with mbak ika,so tired and "tired"...

Weekend went to an indian restaurant to eat for lunch,bro have been wanting to go since like few weeks back,he keep saying it's nice and he want to go but we didnt eventually,hahha,wait till this saturday we went to eat, it was nice, the food was nice,though not much variety but it was nice, and i ordered a indian tea,that's wat the waiter said, ok i dun like it! they put spices in it making the tea taste mint and spicy,ok really i dun like it and it was not sweet...after adding lots of sugar bro drink it,he said it was ok,maybe he like it.. i really dun like the tea.. X(
went to 'Cao Nguyen', vietnamnese supermarket which seels chinese foods and other stuff, and find there's not much stuff there, they have not restock yet...so quite wasted!! and then went to 'Cafe De Taipei',it was closed!!!X( so went back home...

Today finish my Exam 3, ok i think i will did badly for this,i was first one to leave because i dunno how to do some of the questions and i did it in a way i think it should be,have feeling that it is wrong...so went to ask marlene if i can work earlier, they cut our hrs bcs we have too many people,now i'm working for 2 and 1/2 hrs only everyday, was planning to work in the morning,but now it was ruined!! i cant work in the morning now... finally i was feeling that i want to work real hard this time and guess now, it was ruined...cant even have a chance now... so sian!! :(( everytime was having this feeling to do something and in the end it was ruined before i started!! C'mn!!! was trying to prove myself that i can do it!!! and it was gone just by the time i set my mind! :((

it's 11 p.m now,thinking if i want to do my hw earlier...ehrm...think abt it...

-我没有不喜欢你，只是有一点不高心。你们好像没有想到我的感受，没有想我是这么想的。好像我这么想对你来说不重要。我需要时间再变回去以前的我。。。-

Tari Saman tomorrow!!

will be performing tari saman tomorrow...i dunno have feeling that not much will come,then after hearing wat happen today,maybe it's true...but serioudly hope people will come to enjoy these 1 &1/2 hrs of performance,$8/$10 per ticket,i think it's really worthwhile to enjoy the performance,maybe u shld have pay more for it!! just hope all went smoothly and GREAT!!! :D

just finish my hw,ok it sux!!! i cant guarantee an 'A' this time...actually nvr once!! haiz...just hope it can be over and i dun have to study anymore... just sux!! but exam was good,i was shocked by the marks i get,the teacher is really linient here, i thought i would get 20 less marks then wat i get...but it was good it was good...

so tired...played with dungyi just now...he is so cute, he can do 'hand' now,so so cute...but still he become more and more hyper.. he keep jumping around now,woori say bcs he get bully everytime,they make him jump,hahaha...so he used to jumping now... he wont get tired!! played for almost an hr and still he didnt sleep... but maybe he is sleeping now,nobody is playing with him now..

now going to sleep after emailing people bah,been dragging it till now...
that's all for today,just feel like writting!!!

~I'm tired!!~

非常累

我真得不懂。。。我真得很累了。。。
真的好累。。。
I dunno why cant just things be simple...
:(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

Fireworks...

Just got back from boomer lake for the fun raising event, and today is american's independent day, so there's a fireworks display.. it was nice, yeah like the other fireworks but everytime is just still so beautiful maybe the atmosphere and the people you are with bah,maybe...

Today's fundraising, i really dunno how is it, but can consider good bah..we selling bottle water for $2 dollar each,though really sounds expensive but it is for donation and people are buying because maybe they dun have a choice or really want to donate bah.. we didnt sell a lot i could say, there's so many left over... walked around part of boomer lake to give out flyers and selling water, carying the cooler box around, it was so tiring... but for good cause and agree to help so, it's a good thing...

Last few days have been training for our performance on July 11th-"Eyes On Me" concert, it was fun and so so so painful...muslce pain and bruises for some...but we are done with almost every move but just how we are suppose to make it work with the others is the problem... but we still have few days to go and i think we can make it just going to be really tired, and we still have non-english/indonesian language lyrics to learn,haha...quite funny though the song but still it's going to look nice if we do it altogether... :DD

Been really tired this few days, having exam 2 on mon, i am really scared this time, i think if i can just get a 'B', i'm really happy but is still want to get 'A', i dun want to dissapoint... Maybe i'm really going to try really hard!! 加油!!

going to bathe and sleep le...tml practice at 12:30..
nite everybody!!!
~chalja~

P.s.xiangwei i didnt italic my words this time,haha...

~我想念以前的我,虽然不是很满足,但是至少没有现在那么不快了.现在觉得真得很不快乐,不管做什么都好像会令很多人不开心..虽然会觉得为什么每个人都会这么想..难道我不能做我要做的事吗?? 就不能不要这么危难人家吗? 可是我还是觉得如果时间能回到过去,好希望能回到你们认为是以前的我~
+大家都会说我变了,但是我变不是好事吗?+