30.10.08

As the time goes...

As time goes it's way, things have been different, very much different from wat it used to be...so many things have happen and it seems that things have been happening over again, the same things but the feeling is much deeper this time, getting more scared...
having exam tomorrow and really scared this time, if i dun turn my grade this time, i really dunno wat will happen to my grade this semester, i tried hard... but y things are not the way i thought it should be... getting the marks i got for my finance 2nd exam really pulled me down real hard, it was one of the exam that i really did study hard and really tried my best, getting that grade really makes me want to give up again... really felt so down... going to give it another try this time, hope things can be different...
i'm missing my parents who i thought wont be really this bad...things have not been going right and hoping they were here was one of my wishes, maybe encouraging me, or giving me the fear and they so called "advice" to get me into studying,being scared of them really can give me the motivation to study...
Things really get me hard this time...feeling helpless, i'm really tired...i know it cant be compared to some others but I Am Not You, i am me...

going to study...

~oyasumi~

1.10.08

Happy birthday to me...

haha...had BBQ yst night. near midnight have another small celebration, tintin make a cheesecake for us..it was nice!! and pretty too, when i first saw it,haha..u know what i meant tintin!! :DD
it was somehow great but think abt it, 19 is not really smth to celebrate for,hahah.. 18-legal age, 20-starting of ur age with a number '2' in front, 19-last year of ur teenage years.. ehrm... i dunno,not the same as i predicted but had fun still... slept at 4 am that day,talking and have a small small gathering.. :DD

today though is birthday,but classes wont be canceled bcs of this,hahah..woke up at arnd 7 today,have to help elisa at 8 am with the international expo thingy,moving stuff to su... after i went to throw trash when she pick me up,she suddenly start singing 'happy birthday' song,hahaha!! so surprise and funny!!
was so so so tired... during jap class i was like nodding my head and almost falling asleep during class,was so tired! after that went to help out setting up the stall to sells our SATAYS!!! i didnt eat any though,hahah...was so tired. and hot,and the clothes are all smells of the charcoals!! errr... we manage to sell all of them, YEAH!!

skipped class at 1:30,so was planning to go to the other section but aaron help me hand in attendance and he told me abt the tips for the exam,so didnt go in the end!!hahaha...went back to see if they need help moving the things but they left,so went to take the bus... got home at arnd 5 pm,bathe bcs sticky and ate something...was so sleepy!! check my mails for awhile then went to sleep till 10 pm just now,ahahah...get up do my management which was due ltr at 12!! c'mn..why so busy!!

now gg to study for exam on friday!! :((
so gambate!!

P.s thanx for the celebration and the wishes and the gifts... :DD